A relationship with a narcissist is a rollercoaster of emotions ranging from criticism, rage, blame, lies, gaslighting, lack of boundaries, put downs, and excessive control.
As a result of the constant abuse from a narcissist you may experience complex
post-traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD).
Over time this abuse takes a toll and affects every area of your life. You may feel
as if you are losing your mind and have no idea who you are anymore.
Other feelings you may experience are helplessness, confusion, guilt, and shame.
You feel lost and alone.
Your true sense of self has been stripped from you.
You are a shell of the person you once were.
When you do reach out for support, you may find that you are not receiving the support you need.
You may not be believed or understood.
You may not even be able to verbalize what you are experiencing.
The people you are reaching out to may not be able to relate to what you are experiencing.
This lack of support may re-traumatize you by confirming the message you have been given by the narcissist in your life, that message being:
This is your fault and only you are to blame for what you are experiencing.
Things you should know:
What you are experiencing is not your fault.
None of this is your fault.
Everything you are feeling is normal.
You are not alone.
You can heal from narcissistic abuse..
Can you relate to any of this?
Anxiety attacks
Scared
Feeling lost
Self blaming
Confused
Difficulty trusting anyone
Feelings of codependency
Rumination
Isolation
Obsessively thinking about the abuser
Panic attacks
Fear of being alone
Feeling worthless
Unable to make decisions on your own
Emotionally dysregulated
insomnia
mentally and physically exhausted
No one understands what you are going through
You don't understand what you are going through
You feel like you will never get past this
You are unable to make sense of what happened
Anger over the abuse you experienced
Hyper vigilant and always on edge
Overwhelming grief
know that you are not alone